Solid Deconstruction (by Ryan Jaddoe)
Walls are built in response to the pain inflicted to a person. That which may seem hard to do at first, becomes inevitable in the end. We may like or dislike it, but in order to survive we need to let our guard down. This method, though applicable to every individual, is drastically different for each and every one. Some of us feel the need to let it all down at once, others construct and deconstruct.
I have tried both methods, but the second one has always worked for me. After going through the same process for years, it never seems to become much easier. It is true that you grow into the habit. Nonetheless I always need a moment to get used to the feeling. The trick is knowing where and when to deconstruct. And in this case wisdom does come with age.
At the moment I am busy rebuilding. I let it all down at once last time. Let me tell you, it was horrible. Honestly it drained all my energy. I felt weak and suffered from extreme fatigue. But I am glad to have had that experience. This definitely was a huge learning moment for me. And I got to know myself in a very new way. Yet I am unquestionably done with feeling like that. It feels amazing climbing back on top of my game. It is good to be back.
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